Please have faith in me, if not I'll fall and tumble and crash and burn into something useless

What else could I have done?

So later on at 1230

there's a competition 

and I'm taking parting in it.

The best part is

It's my first competition

Holy shit

I'm nervous.

Jason is having high expectations (my partner)

And I'll do my best later on

Gonna chill and have fun later on.

I have no rights to be disappointed because I've disappoint her so many times and it's just a competition anyway... And it's also our 2nd month.

Its all about money money money money money. Wouldn't it be good if I was the grandson of yeos/Far East organization? 

Ha, stop dreaming motherfucker, you gotta work your way up bro.

Well I'm gonna say that I do not deserve this shit and now I'm gonna give good results and receive back even better fking results.

What you give is what you receive.

I gave shitty attendance and shitty work and now this is what I receive, shit.

I don't know man, I don't know what's gonna happen in my life, I have to set my goals but it's all fucked up right now.

Stop having self pity, stop being sad, make people happy and you will be happy

“Sometimes, when a person is about to tell you something that’s going to change your life, or make you cry, or make you leap for joy - sometimes you know it before they say a word.

It’s in the way they look at you and the way they open their mouth. It’s in the tilt of their head, the tension in their hands, or the slump of their shoulders.

Times are, you don’t need words to hear a thing.”

Rebecca Hahn,  A Creature of Moonlight 

“I felt myself melting into the shadows like the negative of a person I’d never seen before in my life.”

Sylvia Plath,  The Bell Jar 

“Following straight lines shortens distances, and also life.”

Antonio Porchia

I'm hooked so badly, I wanna quit but my mind is stopping me.

URGH

Well it seems like I fucking suck because I can't do what I say. 

I should start reading quotes from tumblr again :)

How to stop smoking? :(

words that i have to kick it into my head.

Imagine the satisfaction you'll feel after going through 2 years of animation.
You hated it but you did so well, imagine how proud you'd be, & you'll see how much you've grown.

............................................................................ <--- my emotion right now.

Seeing her for such a short time wasn't enough.

At least the level of missing her lowered..

Annndddddd it's coming back right now.

Nitec cert with a 2.5 GPA, then I'll go fking NAFA. Fuck this shit it's just one more year of animation hell.

I'm lost 

I'm not sure if I'm able to do it 

I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know

Hi dy 😘

So these few days was all about being strong mentally. Fighting the urge to smoke, meeting up on time and going to school. 

I gotta say, it's fking unpleasant to fight the urge to smoke, and in coping just fine. :)

Me and Amanda are fine, we fall deeper in love everytime we argue, have some lovey dovey time together or just sitting at the beach talking all day. I love that girl.