After all this, I am thankful of what you've done for me and I appreciate everything.

I'm still immature, I know, I am trying really hard.

I love you for what you've done for me, I love you for who you are, although my mood was fucked up and I'm different today, I still love you as much.

Don't give up on me, I love you

It sucks to cry alone

I'm hurt and sad. 

Tmr isn't a chill day, so I'll get my ass up and do some fucking productive work at home instead of surfing YouTube. Jezz I've been giving excuses to not do things I am suppose to, excuses end right here and now. I believe I can do it, and I will. 

Sometimes I just believe I can do it and let it come to me and not me going to get what I want instead. That's so wrong...

Negativity in me is overwhelming 

Ok I have no fucking idea wtf

Confusion, is the state that I'm in right now 

I'll be ready for life, for life.

I hope I'll stay the same, yet different.

I'm willing to take the hits 

I'm willing to take the hits 

It hurts to see her being so close to other guys, I know how it feels, so I rather not.

I was immature, now it's time to grow,

I'm fucking 18 and hopeless, yes hopeless, but I'm NOT giving up. I'm not a coward

I hope I don't lose it this time round

Anyway, a boring day in school today but  I'm looking forward to what I'll be learning later on. 

Went to visit my boy Gerry straight after school, chilled for awhile then we had a fucking killer workout. I really wanted to puke but I kept it in, it felt really horrible. But yep, day 1/30 of losing 4kg.

 

Games ended, the time we used to have fun will never be taken back, there are no regrets. Just consequences. Just like how I'm going to pay for not sleeping early. I'm not giving up, I'm fighting back to the light. I'm not a coward that gives up

I miss you too, just so you know.

I'm missing you like crazy

I'm gonna change, I'm losing myself but yes I'm gonna change. Get my shit together, be strong and get through this

Can't wait for fitting muahahahaha

So, the new lifestyle begins

So, the new lifestyle begins