It's not as simple as you think it is.

Saying I Love You too easily in the past because I don't understand what it really means but now, I kinda do and I'm afraid of saying it. 

I'm afraid that I won't be able to prove my words because in the end, it's all about what you do and not what you say.

I've not been able to prove what I say, for example, not buying cigarettes. 

I had to buy, because taking cigarettes from others is just too selfish.

I know, it's an excuse. 

It's really hard to quit smoking. 

1 day without nicotine can change my entire mood. 

I'll get irritated easily and I'll get super sleepy.

I need guidance, I need someone who can really tell me not to smoke.

This addiction has got to stop if not I'll be broke.

I'm sorry dy.

Now back to what I was saying.

I feel that when you say these 3 words out, you got to really mean it, not just saying, you have to show it.

Showing love is what I suck at, even at talking and keeping a conversation going.

So used to shutting the fuck up until I have absolutely no words to say to other people.

Well I guess I'll just have to learn how to converse better all over again.